Dear Crush...

Would be awkward wouldn't it if this wasn't dedicated to my beau.

So darling, this one is for you.

When I first met you, I had only just broken up with my previous boyfriend the night before so falling for you was very unexpected.

I started fancying you because, well, you were my type. Looks wise. I remember when I first started seeing you, a girl I knew said to me, "Couldn't you have gone for someone more attractive?" I was shocked by that comment because in my eyes, you were and are a good looking man to me. You have the "geeky" look that I go for and you are a lovely human being, so that silly bitch is missing out.

Some girls go for rugged, muscley or a Hollister model but for me, it has always been nerds. They're smart and awkwardly cute, and that's a couple of things I love about you, but I know you hate me saying that you look like a geek. Don't know why, you should class it as good thing, if you didn't look like that, I wouldn't be here today in your arms.

Getting-to-know-you wise, I realised you were something special. I felt a strong connection with you and even though it's been two years, I still feel it now. You are a lovely person, I don't know how I ended up with someone so wonderful because I get so grumpy and snappy at you, but you are ever so patient with me. You laugh off my grumpiness, cwtch me until I'm better and you call me beautiful every single day. I've never felt so loved.

But you can be annoying. SO ANNOYING! But I really love you. Like a lot, so I guess I can put up with it.

To be honest, I don't know how to express how much you mean to me. This letter would not cover everything, but I can say that you are my best friend and my lover all in one package, even though I said in the last letter I didn't have any best friends, this is different. However, one thing I don't like is that you know me too well - only because I don't even know myself sometimes! But I feel we have the same sort of values and way of thinking, which is why I can kind of read you.

Yet again, this can't justify how you have affected me. YOU MAKE MEH SO HAPPEEEEE!

All the love from, Baby Bear x

Dear Best Friend...

This is going to be a sad confession, but I don't think I have a best friend. I have a couple of close friends, but best? I don't know. It's been such a long time since I've had one and since friendships come and go, I don't know what qualifies one.

Of course in school I had plenty of best friends which is a normal part of growing. Anyone you got on with was classified as your best friend but during those 5 years, you start to figure out who your friends are. And even after that? Well, I actually still don't know who my friends are. Going to college and university definitely helped narrowed it down but I feel for the better.

So, to the close friends that I do have, thank you for staying in my life.

I don't feel I have many friends today but I don't think it's also healthy to have about 20 people some class as their "best friend", so I'm glad I'm not in that kind of situation.

Sorry this is a short letter, but I don't have much to say about the topic. To be honest, I'm not fussed about having a best friend, I'm happy with family and just friends for now.

Love Isobel.

P.S Peter, you don't count. Nor do you mum.